and what the hell is with wednesday

why do i get like this
am i just being selfish
am i jealous
am i imagining things
or is it rejection.
i hope i am not just felt sorry for
is that why it feels like hard work.
why is there so much pain
so much lonliness
and depression
what happened to the good times
the laughing together
crying together
now i just seem to cry on my own
and what the hell is with wednesday

only God knows

who can understand me
the way i think
confuses me
i think i know myself
yet continually loose my self
i let my circumstances control me
and fear captivate me
i have lost my way
on a journey to an unknown destination
and so i cry
cause afterall
only God knows